Having regained strength and confidence in my ability to journey on mushroom , I decided to repeat the experiment , alone this time . My usual intrepidity I guess!

During a walk the other day, I spotted a perfect spot for a ceremony, on top of a nearby mountain right next to the casa of maria sabina : el cerro de la adoracion .

I pitch my tent , gather wood and prepare what I will need for the ceremony before going to sleep a few hours to rest. The alarm is set for 1am to journey late at night and enjoy the rising sun. I eat the sacred mushrooms, which actually taste pretty good . I have 1h before that the effects take over. 1h to start the fire, dry my drum ( natural skin stretches with humidity) and get myself comfortable… but I cant get the kindlings going and my lighter just stopped working! No more fire, no more drums, no more heat and the effects that slowly begin to be felt ! New plans are being made , I decide to go settle on the nearby ridge where the view is magnificent . This is a sacred place with effigies , crosses , candles ( lighted! )… as we see a lot around here .

I began to journey safely in the other reality, but I quickly lose control . I can feel my strength leaving me , my energy crumbling. I battle to keep positive thoughts but I am overwhelmed by negative visions that gradually take a nightmarish turn and disolve my personal power away. I feel my world falling apart, my personality slipping away, my emotions drawn down. ( reading these few lines, it seems platonic. Those who already played with psychedeliscs might understand. Imagine that all your whole life you have rested on a concept and suddenly it collapses! ) .

Suddenly I realize what is happening : I am being assaulted by a spirit living in the sacred place . An evil spirit who takes advantage of my temporary vulnerability and intruded in me. Hence the principle of shamanic extraction. I think of Tim , regain confidence in me and decide to act like a shaman would do : fight! Not easy without experience. I left the scene while purifying my mind and mentally chasing the bad energy in my body. A psychic fight, but what an intense one! . Back to my camp , I gradually regain control , my energy quickly returns and 30 min later, I got my integrity back together . I’ll spend the end of the night dancing while journeying to finally celebrate the arrival of a new day , reborn again in the light of the rising sun , between sky and cloud, howling life and happiness to live another day on earth .

For a long time I was looking for an opportunity to get back to dancing, dancing without constraints or structure , just letting go at the pace of imagination and creativity of movement as I did when younger . It is very shamanic and certainly many of you journey in the same way without realizing it .

I asked Tim if he could make a journey for me and possibly repair the damages. He reported me that he had an interesting encounter with a spirit of the ancestors , probably a shaman , living on the premises. He wanted to give me an initiation ! Tim told me that I did well not to stay , since he didn’t look very friendly . A slight loss of power resulted, nothing major.

Shamanic explanation :

Psilocybin (the active molecule of psychedelic mushrooms) open consciousness to another reality but tends to become stuck in the middle world (see article on shamanism ) . A multidimensional equivalent to ours but in the spiritual world dimension . One feels the spiritual strength, the energy of each type of consciousness , in addition to spirits living there . Because EVERY thing has its own consciousness, its own energy , created by our collective emotions and thoughts. It is a dangerous world where you can get lost easily without experience, because all is not positive .

During these trips , we realize the power of our emotions. Without help, context or structure , an emotionally unstable person would lose his head quickly. We are literally facing ourself (do you act  in accordance to your emotions? ). Integrity is the key and the power of a good shaman .

I also became aware of the issue of power objects . They act like armor , a fallback option , a place on that place where you position yourself to face any emotional abuse encountered. They connect us to a part of ourself, to which we attached a special trust : here is  our power.

I also met the different aspects of myself , having always existed , both together and separately. The Athlete me , the dancer me, the generous me …All existing in their own universe.

The middle world is a burlesque and incredible world where power can be abused and leads to witchcraft. The FSS ( Foundation For Shamanic Studies ) teaches its use only during advanced training . Feeling its strength and spiritual dimensions really opens your eyes to the world in which we live. As conscious or not , we all feel its effects in some way. I took a lesson and would pay more attention before journeying with mushrooms from now on. They greatly open our energy fields and we put us on conditions of vulnerability. A good message to share with our psychonaut friends : avoid playing alone, anywhere and without experience in the middle world . Finally , as some shaman would say : “bring you heart with you .”

Note: I did my best to be as clear as possible. I’d like to add that it is not just a useless entertainment. Instead , shamanism is pragmatic, makes you grow and teaches you life.  Like Timothy Leary said: “I learned more about psychology in one session of LSD that in 20 years of research ” .

What benefits?

In addition of reconnecting with myself as I did not do it for so long, I could feel and measure the importance and effects of integrity. As I wrote in my first post : “ walk your talk ” … and everything will be fine !

Happy seb !